Then, when her eating disorder became more obvious, things started to spiral. She was banned from having fruit and the phone from her hotel room was removed so she couldn't order room service.
“Over the years it got progressively worse and worse with people checking what my orders at Starbucks were on my bank statements. Just little things like that led me to being really, really unhappy,” she continued. “My bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn't receive the help that I needed. And so I was stuck in this unhappy position. Here I am sober and I'm thinking to myself, "I'm six years sober, but I'm miserable. I'm even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?'"
Eventually, Demi was forced to confront the team about their actions.
“I sent a message out, and I reached out to the people that were on my team, and they responded with like, "You’re being very selfish. This would ruin things for not just you but for us as well." And when I heard that, my core issues are abandonment from my birth father as a child. He was an addict, an alcoholic; like we had to leave him," she said. "And I have vivid memories of him leaving so when [my team] left, they totally played on that fear, and I felt completely abandoned so I drank. That night I went to a party and there was other stuff there and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD."
Still, Demi recognises that it was her choices that led to her overdose – as well as her recovery.
"I made the decisions that got me to where I am today. It was my actions that put me in the position that I'm in," she added, "I think it's important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home or you in the audience or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it."
She continued: “You can get to the other side and it may be bumpy, but you are a 10 out of 10. And as long as you take the responsibility you can move past it and learn to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved.”
Well said, Demi.
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