Chrissy Teigen Speaks Candidly About Her Struggles With Alcohol: "I Have To Fix Myself"

You might have seen the stunning Instagram snaps of Chrissy Teigen’s recent wellness retreat in Bali. But what isn’t shown in these images is that this was the moment the model and cookbook author decided to reset her health and reassess her drinking habits.

"I was, point blank, just drinking too much," the 31-year-old told Cosmopolitan in a revealing interview.

"I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there's just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It's not a good look for me, for John, for anybody."

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The mum-of-one says that her family has a history of alcohol abuse and that she’s the kind of person that "can't just have one drink."

"Nobody really brought it up to me," Chrissy said. "They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn't right. It makes you very short with people. People think it's cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there's more to it. I've never once been like, 'I'm sure glad I had that boozy brunch!'"

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During her stay in Bali, Chrissy completely stopped drinking and she says the feeling was “really, really wonderful”.

"I would wake up feeling amazing. My skin felt amazing. I was just so happy."

"I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober," she said, "But now I get it. I don't want to be that person. … I have to fix myself."