Carrie Bickmore Says Traumatic Birth Experience Impacted Her Mental Health

Carrie Bickmore has revealed that she saw a psychologist after the traumatic birth of her first son Ollie left her terrified to do it again with daughter Evie.  In a candid chat on The Weekly With Charlie Pickering, The Project host said that she wanted to be open about her family’s struggles with mental health, noting that she has had […]

by | Jun 20, 2019

Carrie Bickmore has revealed that she saw a psychologist after the traumatic birth of her first son Ollie left her terrified to do it again with daughter Evie. 

In a candid chat on The Weekly With Charlie PickeringThe Project host said that she wanted to be open about her family’s struggles with mental health, noting that she has had anxiety and her partner Chris has OCD. 

Watch Carrie’s chat about mental health below.

“We don’t spend a lot of time talking about it, I think,” the 38-year-old began.

“That’s what we have and we both openly see, I saw psychologists when I was pregnant with Evie,” she said of her and her partner’s experiences with therapy. “I had this real fear of giving birth to Evie because I nearly died after I gave birth to Ollie.”

“We don’t take special time to talk about as if it’s a strange thing or a thing to be ashamed of or anything, it’s who we are,’ she said, saying there should not be a stigma towards mental illness.”

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In a previous interview with marie claire, Carrie said that 10 days after welcoming Oliver she suffered from a severe haemorrhage that nearly killed.

“If had I not been able to head straight to a hospital and have an operation and blood transfusions, I would have died.”

Carrie has also spoken about the trauma of going through child birth again on her Hit Network radio show.

“Giving birth is a full on thing, it’s beautiful, it’s special, but it’s also traumatic,” she said. “It’s painful, I would have done anything to have the experience erased from my mind. They say you forget and that’s why you go back again. I never forgot. The funniest part, it’s hard to get your head around what actually happens.”

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Here's her story.

What is your experience with miscarriage?

I have lost 3 babies to miscarriage, my first was a missed miscarriage - I walked into a scan expecting to show my then-toddler her baby sibling on the screen only to be met with 'I'm sorry there is no heartbeat.' I had to endure a weekend with that baby dead inside of me before I could be fitted in for a D&C.

My next miscarriage happened 6 months later - I started to bleed on holiday with friends, I told no one, I was deeply ashamed. I passed that baby alone in the shower at 3am, forever traumatised as I had to flush the remains down the toilet.

My final loss was just last year another miscarriage I started to spot and I just knew, the Doctor that saw me this time asked if we could see a flicker on the screen she thought there was a heartbeat, astounded we asked for a second opinion, where it was confirmed my baby had died.

How did you process the trauma?

With my first two losses, I didn't cope. I poured everything into Pink Elephants and having another baby. I had another pregnancy but was completely terrified the whole time, I didn't bond with this baby, no names, no gender reveal, wearing a brave face every day pretending I was grateful. When Johnny was 4 months old it all caught up with me: I had postpartum anxiety and post-traumatic stress as a result of my losses and not processing the trauma. With counselling and medication, I began to heal and process my losses. My loss last year was different: I took bereavement leave, I gave myself permission to grieve our baby girl and mourn my future with her. I spoke with others in our community, I went back to counselling, and I took the time I needed to start to heal.

How did you get the courage to launch Pink Elephants?

I don't think it was courage, in the beginning, I think it was my anger at the lack of support and validation that I chose to channel into something positive.

I never want my daughter to go through what I did in the way I did. Women deserve so much more than what we currently get.

Last year took courage to come back and work in this space again after bereavement leave - the physical and emotional pain was real, the triggers of other women's stories are real but they are also cathartic. As is the change we create, I feel like my work is meaningful and makes a difference that's what carries me on, I know we can do so much more with the right support alongside us.

I want to next see more targeted action from our government - in particular the Department of Health - in addressing this issue. It's no longer ok to turn a blind eye to the death of our babies, our trauma, and our poor mental health because of the system failing us.

How can we support a friend that has been through loss like this?

You can be there for her, you can validate her loss, don't reduce it to 'at least' comments. You can't take away her pain but you can provide a safe space for her to share and feel listened to, empathised with, and supported. Like any other bereavement send flowers, we have collaborated on a LVLY nurture flower posy as a way to do this. Remember there is no timeline to grief and it's ok for her to still be upset for many months after, remember her due date, acknowledge it at the time, support her through other friends' baby showers.

How can women experiencing miscarriage access support?

They can head to www.pinkelephants.org.au to access our circle of support, which includes online peer support communities to connect with others through miscarriage, trying to conceive again, and pregnancy after loss. Specialised emotional support content, as well as shared stories and journeys, can be accessed through our website too.